On Wednesday was another chemo successfully out of the way. Phew! I wasn’t expecting any problems but my blood test had a questionable platelet count, still the specialists decided I was fit for treatment. I am looking forward to the outcome of reduced pain after the chemo shrinks the cancer so I was very relieved to go ahead without any more delays.
In the last few days I have been able to walk around a little each evening, despite painful mornings. I’m trying to make the most of it when I can do a little more. Otherwise, I am still very much disabled and very limited in activity. For example, it seemed a significant achievement today to have a proper shower instead of merely washing with basin and flannel. My Mum has come to stay and help look after me so I feel very fortunate. (Sad for her, and wonderful for me!)
It feels very weird for this to have happened to me and I think I still haven’t really got my head around it. I suppose I had heard something about “bone cancer is very painful”, and that is what is going on here. I didn’t know such pain would be crippling nor wondered how many people in wheelchairs might have this sort of affliction.
In all of this drama and difficulty it’s astonishing that grateful thoughts pop into my head from time to time. It seems good to dwell on these.
* I do think the radiation treatment has fixed the acute lower backpain on my righthand side – hooray!
* I am much loved and am receiving the most amazing support and flood of well wishes – thank you xx
* thank goodness I still have eyebrows (one less job in the morning if I don’t have to draw some on)